Capricorn, or more so Saturn (its ruler), governs time. Earthly time. Mortal time. The rites of passage. Most people think of the Saturn Return, but that, while a storied marker in our evolution, is only one transit. Every seven years or so, Saturn makes a hard aspect to our natal Saturn. 7, 14, 21, 28, 35, 42, 49, 56, 63, 70. These years reveal significant milestones and moments of maturation. At seven, Spiritualists say, we fully incarnate. According to some psychologists, this is the age in which our personality is fully formed, the roots of it, at least. Biologists have further found that every seven years our cells are replenished. We live in a culture obsessed with youth, but time is a gift, each chapter informing the next. Making peace with the seasons and arriving where we are - this is integration.
There’s that scene in Six Feet Under finale. Claire is about to drive to New York, to start anew. Nate’s ghost whispers to her (something to the effect of), as she gathers her family for a photo “you can’t take a picture of it. It’s already gone.” He tells her to go, to overcome her fear, his face fading from view in the side mirror as she drives off. We know there’s no point in chasing the past. It’s what we make of it, how we metabolize it, as we move towards our future. It’s what we carry through. History - personal and collective - revealing an ever evolving lens through time.
My second family visited this week. Those of you who’ve been following my work since the beginning, and who attended the OG New Moon Circle know Paula Mallis, a doula and spiritual mentor. I hadn’t seen her or her husband and kids for nearly three years. It had been too long. Way too long, as her daughter, now 12 and so beautifully coming into herself, plainly stated when we first saw one another. How has it been a decade since I signed her parents’ ketubah, was my following thought. 12 years since I bounced her on my knee and longer still since Paula and I first met in Venice in 2010? And yet, of course it has. So much has happened, so many peaks and valleys. Joys and griefs. A reckoning between what I anticipated and what has actually come to pass. All those lists, all those intentions, they land differently now. I carry more weight and more lines across my face, reflections of midlife and the settling into my skin - this very human experience. Experiences and life itself teases us out. We come to know ourselves in new, sometimes unexpected ways.
Opposite from Capricorn is Cancer. Together, they form the private-public and parental axis, the duties and emotional ties that bind, security and our sense of place. They mark the beginning of winter and summer, seasons for slowing down and savoring, for luxuriating in long nights and days (respectively) with those we love. But Cancer is also memory, what we retain. Not just pictures in a picture frame. Dynamic, rich, and textured reflection. That which continues to give.
All this is to say, I’m very full in this moment. A few perfect days spent rerooting through shared meals, pool hangs and car rides, playing tour guide in this new town I’m calling home. Being with, connecting. The essence of Cancer. The emotional glue of our lives.
Arriving on the heels of Solstice and a week of Neptunian fog, this Capricorn Full Moon has given us a chance to ground. The Cancer - Capricorn Axis centers on home, family, roots, ancestry, emotional and outer security, career, our private and public lives. The organizing principles of our lives. Roots and branches. Neptune adds a layer of limbo and surreality. Are we here or there? What’s the there we’re trying to get to? What will it give us that we don’t already have? What are we structuring our lives on and around? Where’s the meaning? We’ve confused purpose with applied skill set, with the engine of commerce. One really doesn’t have anything to do with the other, though. Capricorn governs our skeleton, our bones, marrow. Purpose through ethic and integrity. A change of season, and also an anchoring. To what and whom are we directing our resources, and to what effect? Capricorn is serious business, but it’s far from joyless. The reward is in the effort, and recognizing just how capable and competent we are. What, genuinely, is more gratifying than that?
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Such gorgeous writing. The lists and intentions…by the time you’re forty-something, goodness- they definitely do hit differently now ♥️♥️